true love. do you get another chance...or is it a one time gig??

i like to do sometime special for valentines day. last year i tried to stay hopeful and make do of my situation. this year i thought i’d do something a little different and go the pour my heart out route.

take it or leave it...


painting by....chris riggs for president


yes i’ve been in love...once. very much in love. it was amazing. love...or was it lust ;)..at first sight! a connection we just couldn’t deny. we both knew it was there instantly. a moment that will be permanently frozen in time....in my mind. i can pull it up anytime i want...just like that. i remember everything he was wearing...his hair his eyes...his smile....what he said. hehe

the physical part of things were intense....the relationship part...well...we didn’t really seem to know how to do that part. we wanted to, but fumbled around. we hurt each other almost as much as we loved...with our selfishness and ignorance and youth...let people and things get in our way. it was no one person’s fault....just how it was. we were young. i was extremely young. much too young to understand what a precious gift it was and definitely too young and foolish to realise it may or may not be my only chance at it...but there it was........

so here i am....many years later. i’m not young any more. many things have come to pass. one of which understandably left me kinda emotionally unable to love for quite a few years. but i’m pretty sure i’m ok with all that now.

so i guess i’m left wondering if i will ever get that chance again.....or is it a one time deal?....never to cross my path again....

fuck i hope not!!

happy valentine’s day everyone!

:)