lake bisset

mum and dad sent me this pic today...it's the lake behind their house in nova scotia....looks very nice


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goals and opportunity

i decided that this year is the year i stop working on my job and start working on my career.

there may be a little opportunity coming up in hiatus and i will take it if that happens. volunteer of course...but it’s a designer gig..and that’s what i need to get on the old resume.

so if anyone hears of any indies, shorts, commercials, music videos, magazine work, fashion layouts...whatever...pass it on. doesn’t matter how small... how little or no money it is right now. i just need to make my protfolio look like a designers instead of a buyers.

thanks...

:)

i don't like mondays....

sometimes i feel i can relate to the girl in that song.

does anyone shop at american apparel??? every fucking time i go in there those guys are jerks (edit; that word use to begin with C and end in NTS)... sorry for the language...actually...no. no i’m not sorry...that’s how i feel. if i didn't have to go there for work...i would go at all. actually i usually send jenn. they're not so bad to her...probably b/c she is young.

everyone that works there is an idiot. they think working at american apparel is cool! what?? it’s not cool! someone please tell them it’s not cool!

the girl’s look down there noses at you b/c they have bangs and haven’t eaten lately. don’t try asking them to look for something...they won’t. i had such bad service and arrogance from them today. when i got back to the office i got my co worker to call and find out who was working...the guy was a jerk to her on the phone too...then he wouldn’t say who was working! i’m calling the district manager tomorrow....oh...this is gonna be sooo much fun!

i love a good fight! must be all that celtic blood! hehehe what’s my family motto again...victory or death.....??

:)

my life in less boxes...

in april 10th 2006 i posted “my life in a box” i said i was going to down size my lock up. well...i did it today!

with a little...a lot...of help from my friends. garn and garbs came at meet me this morning and we...they...moved me into a locker half the size! thanks guys.

now my goal is it get rid of the locker...completely!

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balloon on a string..

sometimes i think of myself as a balloon on a string. floating happily threw the air...not knowing were i may land or where i might go.

the only thing is... a balloon needs some way to attach it’s self to the earth...so it doesn’t fly too high...or too low...or get caught up on over head wires.

a balloon needs a strong grounded person to hold on to her string. a gentle connection that allows her to sway merrily in the breeze but stong enough so as not to let go when gales blow.....

:)

yummy blues

here are some pics form jim's blues party tonight. fun night...lot's of great dances.before hand lucky and i went to ousi bistro...it was a good combo of louisiana cajan food and blues. i was really tired...but that's the great thing about blues...i can do it in any state.

the view through jims steamed up window...sometimes people who are just walking by stop and watch for awhile..





i'm the shortest person on jim's wall....that kind be right...




sleepy time...

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electrics??

this week at work jen and i were busy looking for hooker and stripper wear. here are some of the shoes we just had to try on.....


these ones light up!! ummm...electrics we need a hand over here with these shoes.....;)

the guys on set are all really excited about this episode....i guess...hehehe

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hope you had your haggis today!

mum and dad sent me this poem today....thanks :)

“A ROSE BUD, BY MY EARLY WALK”
by Robie Burns Tune: A Rose-bud

A rose-bud, by my early walk
Adown a corn-inclosed bawk,
Sae genty bent its thorny stalk

All on a dewy morning.
Ere twice the shades o’ dawn are fled,
In a’ its crimson glory spread
And drooping rich the dewy head,

It scents the early morning.
Within the bush her covert nest
A little linnet fondly prest,
The dew sat chilly on her breast,

Sae early in the morning.
She soon shall see her tender brood,
The pride, the pleasure o’ the wood,

Awake the early morning.
So thou, dear bird, young Jeany fair,
On trembling string or vocal air
Shall sweetly pay the tender care

That tents thy early morning!
So thou, sweet rose-bud, young and gay,
Shalt beauteous blaze upon the day,
And bless the parent’s evening ray

That watch’d thy early morning!

:)

it's robbie burns day in scotland already!!

happy robbie burns day all of you....this poem means a lot to me and i wanted to share it. oh and the pic...well...that is me being cheeky!....hopefully somebody will get a laugh from it ;)


A Red, Red Rose.


O my luve's like a red, red rose,
That's newly sprung in June;
O my luve's like the melodie
That's sweetly played in tune.

As fair art thou, my bonie lass,
So deep in luve am I;
And I will luve thee still, my dear,
Till a' the seas gang dry,

Till a' the seas gang dry, my dear,
And the rocks melt wi' the sun;
I will uve thee still, my dear,
While the sands o' life shall run.

And fair thee weel, my only luve!
And fair thee weel, a while!
And I will come again, my luve,
Tho' it were ten thousand mile!

Robbie Burns 1759-1796

:)

snowy white owl...

today on my way back to work from my day of shopping downtown. a large pure white owl flew low over my car. it was amazing...stunned me for a second or two. it was so close to my window i got a really clear view. such and beautiful creature.

i know it means something...i do. i feel it. now strangely...i smell it as well. now that's odd....hmmmm...
it's good....it's going to be good!


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one box at a time...

two boxes down...a few to go.

i have a new new years resolution....open my mail. for some unknown reason i just don’t open my mail. i look at the outside...i figure i know what’s in it. it’s pretty much always a bill or something. i put it in a box...boxes of mixed up mail and receipts ...ekkk!!!

mishi gave me a good idea of how to sort it. thanks mish...all though i’m sure jazz already has plans to mess it up the second i leave the house or go to sleep. i guess i can’t leave it there.

anyway thanks to garn also...for kicking my ass...i needed it!!! you will be glad to know i sorted some of my banking stuff today too....i’m on my way.....to getting trough my list.

anyone know a good bookkeeper?? i need one big time!

:)

dog day at the park...

i finally got to have my day at the park with the doggies. it was nice.

it reminded me of when i first moved to wall st and was doing my big walking program. that's also when i first started dancing. i use to walk an 1.5hrs a day. sunset was the nicest time along wall st. i would often take a break at the park by the hospice which has an amazing view. one day i found a bunch of coins by the bench i sat at. i didn't keep them. i made a wish....then piled them up on the bench for someone else to find. that was 2.5 years ago and my wish hasn't come true yet. i hope it does...i hope it does soon.

kimba and daisy wrestling at the park

taking a break...


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dancing the blues away

sometimes i just don’t know what i would do without dancing. i can go out when i feel at my lowest and for a few hours be on top of the world. tonight was one of those nights for sure. i was the bell of the ball. it seemed like everyone wanted a dance with me and i had sooo many fun and playful ones. i think i danced almost every song. my legs are quite sore.

i feel so lucky that i have so many great people to dance and socialise with. on any saturday night i can just go there. i don’t need anyone else to go with...i just show up! what could be better!!

tonight “the other big band” played...i know...terrible name...but they were awesome. super tight horn section...lots of tempo variety....songs that weren’t ten minutes long...just great to dance to.

tomorrow night...it's abbotsford..for sure.

:)

reminder to myself...

don't get sad...get mad..then get even!

goodnight.

:)

frog in my throat

i dreamt last night that i was chocking and trying to make myself threw up to get rid of the obstruction. when i awoke i did feel like i had something in my throat...i thought maybe it was congestion.

i got up did my usual day off shit....made a few phone calls....got in the shower...then i hit me.

i knew what it was. i started to cry.

what do you do when someone...probably your oldest...no second oldest friend doesn’t respect you anymore. someone you have been to hell and back together with...and sorta survived.

when you finally realise that fact. it like a punch to the gut. i don’t know when it started...slowly over time. missed phone calls..many phone calls. calling back a couple of days a week...never...by the end you are calling them three or four times before you get a response. saying we will meet and it never happening....little by little.

then finally one day they prove it to you and you just can’t ignore it anymore. so what then?? do you stand by and wait for then to come around? walk away for good??

:)

more eating and drinking....

met lucky for dinner again tonight. we went to one of our favourite japanese places, zukkushi. it was yummy as always....slower that usual...but it was a pretty rainy cold Wednesday night.

lucky has an expense account for food while he is here...since he is staying at a hotel so he pays for the food and i pay for the booze...works out pretty well for both of us.

afterwards we wanted to get a nice cocktail so we headed over to loitta's where they make an awesome mojito...

i took these on my blackberry....




hey...i have thursday, friday and monday off!! what will i do with myself?!

:)

old faces..

every now and again old faces pop up...that well...you just don't want to see.

not that you had anything against them or anything like that, in fact maybe i quite liked them...it's just that they bring you back to another time another life...when things were different.

when you see those faces it all come rushing back to you...


:)

bumper cars...

a friend of mine from portland sent me this....

http://www.king5.com/sharedcontent/VideoPlayer/makeASX.php?title=www.king5.com/kiraw_011607portlandhomevid.wmv

people in the pactfic north west coast...just don't know how to drive in snow.

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yep...

...as i said yesterday...weird week.

i was on my way to meet lucky tonight and what happens?? my car breaks down...eekk....poor guy came all the way from chicago...i'm not going to stand him up. so i call the towing company get them to tow my car then drop me off in yaletown.
it was hard to find a kitchen open that late so we ended up at the cactus club.

oh well...it was nice to see lucky.

anyway...i'm sleepy...have to get up and cab it to the dealer...and get a loaner. goodnight

:)

help....i slipped and fell into a weird week!

sometimes i think my titles are better than my posts!! hehehe


thank's to all the good friends who have given me advice or leant an ear in the last couple of days. i really appreciate it you guys.....

speaking of friends....my friend lucky, not lucky i have a friend....is coming to work here from chicago for two weeks. yippee!! were gonna dance and eat japanese food...and dance some more...

:)

never a dull moment...

as someone pointed out to me today...my life is never boring. ain't that the truth...

so...i decided to sit back tonight do some laundry and watch season one of arrested development.

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eye for an eye?

there are were two major news stories this week that i really should address. they have both been on my mind. and although i don’t want my blog to turn into a political forum.... i will address one now....


i haven't been following politics and world events much in the last 8 or 9 years. some of you i’m sure can guess why and when that happened. it’s just all too much sometimes and i needed a break from it.

i used to be really into it coming from a politically aware family where debating around the dinner table was often our entertainment. i do feel myself becoming interested again. maybe i am ready to have an interest in the world around me once more. baby steps though. i still don’t watch tv much, that includes the news. i read the paper about once a week...sometimes more sometimes less. i figure if it’s important i’ll hear about it and if i want to know more i look it up on the internet.

anyway i should get to the point

....saddam’s hanging.

i wanted to say something about it sooner...just didn’t know what to make of it. i saw most of the hanging on utube. i turned it off before the actual hanging. pretty horrifying that corporal punishment exists today. i don’t remember mum saying “two wrongs don’t make a right...except in the case of hanging dictator’s”. i must have missed that one...

i personally think he should have been allowed to live in his own personal hell...killing him was an easy out...and especially so quickly and before facing ALL his crimes.

i read this article in the straight that gave the whole thing an interesting spin.....check it out....

http://www.straight.com/article/saddam-hussein-hanged-for-the-wrong-reason

the other news is local and i may or may not address that another day...

:)

happy birthday kat!!

it’s katharina’s birthday today. katharina is my niece ....i was only about 16 when she was born...so she feels almost like a younger sister...(except she’s way smarter, taller and much more mature than me! ;-)

kat lives in london where rubs elbows with rock stars and the upper crust.

so happy birthday katharina...hope to see you in the spring maybe...most likely....

love, your favorite aunt ooxx...;) i won't tell the other's if you don't...shhhh)

kat was pretty cute then...gorgeous now


:)

another tip for the domestically disabled...

if you had to work late and take tai home is closed....sardines on toast make a nice nutritious meal....unless you forget the buy cat food...then goat cheese on toast is almost as nutritious.

i lucked out and had some tuna for jazz..she doesn’t like sardines anyway..she doesn't like smoked oysters either! ;)
that crazy cat...


i was suppose to dance tonight..but i’m way too tired. i hate when work interferes with my dancing. ah well...i guess there is always saturday.

:)

sonw pic..

someone sent me this pic from sonw....

vancouverites rule at sonw...me, jordan, terry, haley, damon...and of course alison...


:)

inspired by bad traffic...

I sorta feel like I've been waiting to turn a corner in life for awhile now...looking and waiting for it.

I was getting a little worried that I had either missed my turn or taken a left instead of a right. My map isn't very good and I'm really bad at directions or maybe I need a GPS! hehe

anyway...I think it might have been a gradual curve instead of a turn that I was needing and I think I might actually have been on it for awhile...without realising it.

Curves are safer than turns  anyway...I think... 

With a turn you can't see the road you where on before at all and have no idea what you might be facing on that new road. there could be traffic...ice...construction...whatever..and then your stuck...trying to get back to the old one...and that sucks. i took one before that ended up being pretty scary and it took ages to get back on track.

so...i think this is good...


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happy birthday tommy...

i don't think i have ever called him tommy...but mum doe's sometimes and i think it's cute...

anyway, it's tom's birthday today. i got him a nice present...but haven't sent it..so i guess it will be late. sorry tom. it will be a nice surprise in a week or so from now!

*a tip for the domestically disabled; when mailing gifts...don't worry if the paper is new or if it's poorly wrapped. the person will think it happened in transit!

simon, tom and peter with the twins in the background...at tom and gloria's wedding.

happy birthday tom..you'll always be older than me!! hehehe



last night was the sing-a-long night with the hard rock miners at the railway...i've meantioned it a few times before on the blog. it happens one a month. this one was an especially fun one. lots of swing dancing friends came out and aaron chapman (from the town pants) sat in and played his musical saw and mando among other odd instruments...which was really cool. no pics...unfortunately i forgot my camera.

so, i'm a little worse for wear today....plus it was super busy at work. i will try to make it an early night tonight i think. i always say that...it never happens!! i'm just a night owl at heart.

:)

go canucks!

what a weekend!! wow...i wish it wasn't almost over...some amazing events.

i went to see the canucks beat the panthers in a shoot out tonight at gm place. it was the first time i had seen a canucks game or been to gm place. it was a great game. i'm not a canucks fan but i like live hockey...so it was awesome!

i went with a couple of guys from dancing eric and darren..they will make a fan out of me yet!


i wanted to beat the crowds so i decided to go get beer w. 1 minute left in the 1st....they scored!! this was just after...

wonder who their target market is...hehe

eric and darren

darren likes his beer...



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freaky good things...

the oddest think happened to me today...well..i guess it started last night. was last night a full moon? i think it must have been.

well..i told you about the punk retrospective thingy yesterday...i bumped into a very sweet girl with an awesome chihuahua called sophie.

i have been thinking about getting one and wanted to ask her about them...i know..they are a little dog but some of them are cool...and this one was very cool indeed. she can run with the big dogs anyday i'm sure.

i knew the girl looked familier...but didn't think much of it. anyhow i figured out later that she is a old friend of garn's named ani and i've seen her on his blog and myspace. i messaged her told her the story. she messaged me back and said "holy shit dude!! i think your dog's are my dog's puppies! ...not my chihuahua's...hahah"...that's ani's quote. she has another dog...gunther and yes....gunther is my doggies dad! i had heard many stories of where kimba, daisy and their siblings are from and what mix they are...and now ani has kindly told me the whole story!

kimba and daisy's dad...gunther...he looks like a big old sweetie pie! (i lifted this and another pic from ani's myspace..hope she doesn't mind!)

gunther's mom is an akita from the yukon...and she may have been knocked up by a timber wolf...

i can see that...especially when kimba and daisy play they growl when they do this..freaks people out

daisy really has that wildness to her personality..sean told me she was sleep howling at the full moon last night...he said it was really eary

anyhow gunther and a cute husky hooked up and made super cute puppies.




it's sooo weird how the world works...things like that blow my mind! i told ani the next time i take the doggies out i will call her so she can meet them.
it was all b/c of a cute little doggie called sophie...

sophie..you're the best!

:)

ageing punk rockers...

i went to this photographic retrospective tonight on the punk scene by bev davies. it’s was good but weird and a little pathetic at times.

the photography was good....but some of the people...OMG...can you say time warp?! eeekkk....nothing worse than an ageing rocker...except maybe an ageing punk rocker! it was a little sad...seeing people who just don’t seem to have move at all from that point in time...a point that get father and farther away.

ok...i know i can be guilty of that at times...with some things. we all do it to an extent. i’m sure many think i look ridiculous...a 40yr old with a stripe in her hair and piercings. i do think about that from time to time. when it looks like you you were frozen it time...every thing except the wrinkles that is! that is when you have become a charactature of yourself.

the show brought back some good memories though. one thing i noticed when i looked at the pics all these people who looked odd at the time...are just fresh faced young kids. nothing to what punks look like today. you kinda forget those things. many of the musicians look different then i remember them....b/c you remember them how you want to. memories are funny things.

iggy looks the same though...iggy never changes! hehe

:)

chinese food again...

i had chinese food tonight...for the fourth day in a row!! wow....tomorrow i think i will have something different.

i got this much mail today!! that’s AFTER junk mail! wow....sure glad i spent that $60 on getting my mail forwarded! alot of these are months old! love it....



friday tomorrow...

:)

new years baby....

it seems i have a new...nephew...cousin? not sure what to call him, but i have a new relative. my sister in law's sister had a kid...new years day!! ok..that's cool.

his name is tyson...last name tba. they must be fighting about it. hehe

that's one lucky kid...all those good looking women around him!


:)

battling it out in the mall

i was back to work today and i was battling it out at the mall with those poor fools desperate to save a buck. it was brutal. can somebody please tell them that christmas is over and it’s ok to be nice to people again. i got pushed by one woman so hard i almost fell over at artizia. later i got hit in the head with a hanger at guess...(ok that one was my fault.)

it was definitely a little surreal though going from being in a camp in the middle of dumb f__k usa to a downtown mall. i was all a little too much...plus those old thigh muscles are still aching.

i got a bit of a laugh at the bay though. the salesman asked me if i was part of the HBC community yet......whoa? HBC community....credit cards are communities now?? really? go figure...when did that happen?

i laughed ...hard!! not sure if the guy knew why i was laughing....but that’s ok.

:)

finally..

i'm home...finally. got locked out for a bit. b/c my landlord forgot to tell me he had to change the locks! he got an earful! anyway here are the pics i was promising...

frankie gets animated...



jordan and branwyn are captivated...by frankie and each other..;)


frankie and chazz lead the shim sham...


alison knows how to relax

51st eight play an awesome two nights of music

more cabaret


snowy camp arnold...



ronnie and hayley at my favourite place at camp...the espresso bar..



jordan and me... hawaiian night

kevin buster loves his crazy orange and turquoise pants...


alison and karen new years eve


:)