new years day....

i wrote this last night.

it’s 4.51am new years day...2007. i’m in my room at camp. the dance is still going. some people are determined to dance the entire night away...but i feel satisfied.

i have spent a bit of time on my own in my room this week..listening to my itunes...reflecting. it’s good...i like it. i enjoy hanging with myself...more and more as i get older.

it’s kinda funny how afraid many younger people are of being alone. (ok..that made me sound really old!) anyway...at meal times at camp we eat at round tables. people would just squeeze in more chairs to fit in...instead of making a new table. it was like they were afraid of sitting alone. weird. it happened every meal time....pretty much. i always made a new table if there was no room....people joined in.

it’s very strange how people make divisions and groups. one table vancouverites...one for advanced dancers...one for the musicians...or computer geeks with their lap tops...teachers....

i find it hard...b/c i don’t feel like i fit in any group and i don’t understand it. so i just float. sometimes moving through out the meal. main course..dessert..tea..then computer time....

i actually meant to write about something else when i started this...then this came out. i can’t even remember what the other thing was. that happens alot while writing my blog. i guess that’s why it’s good....i like it it when that happens. it’s like a dance....you never know what the outcome is when you start...you just know you are inspired....

happy new year!

:)