thought my blog needed some colour...

i have to admit...i’ve been having a hard time of it lately....

everytime i think i’m doing ok...something happens to bring me down.

i’m starting to feel quite alone and at a loss as to what to do about all this sean stuff. today in the bank i nearly had a nervous breakdown trying to find out if we can separate our debt. they weren’t very helpful and i had to leave.

there has been someone who always seems to be there for me lately. she served me this amazing special breaky the other day to cheer me up...

thankx ani.

a friend sent me this today...for sean



:)

bluesy monday...

i get to my semi usual coffee shop today..prado. it's about 2pm....the time gets later and later everyday.

i step out of my car in front...

there's a guy dressed in hippy robe with a white beard playing tambourine and selling canvas with colourful paint on them...he probably calls it art. i call it something else...beginning with an S___

a youngish funky looking black guy is sitting on the patio playing basic blues rifts on a steel guitar...stomping his foot on the case...adding the accessional harmonica to the mix.

I walk inside...they're playing bob dyan....like a rolling stone....

I hear the mix of it all....This is all so surreal i think to myself...so commercial drive. i wonder if i can have a blues even here?? there's a wood floor! hmmmm

speaking of blues....

tonight is blues dancing at the yale. I'm trying my best to get people out...but they're resistant. I'm taking the class as a lead! Oh boy...could be interesting. I've never really lead before.

I would like to start a monthly blues event in vancouver...there are challenges to this of course. Its not a money maker for a bar bc dancers just don't drink much. I need to find a venue that we can have a friday event....licensed would be nice. needs to have a half decent wood floor.

If anyone has any ideas...please let me know!

:)

earning my nickname....

i seem to be having vivid dreams these days. every now and again that happens to me. i close my eyes when i go to bed...just before i go to sleep. i guess that doesn’t really make it a dream then does it? not sure what to call them...visions in my head! HAHA... that makes me sound psychic or just pain crazy!

you know.... that time between when your asleep and awake...when you’re really neither. some people think that’s when you're closest to other plains of existence...whatever you believe those other plains are called...really doesn’t matter. you’re not quite here on this earth....

i notice this happens to me alot more often when i'm not working...wonder why?

it’s funny....when i talk like this people either nod at me knowingly....or just look at me like i’m insane. i guess i'm just earning my nickname...


dancing in abbotsford again tonight. i hate to think what my life would be like if it wasn't for dancing....scary...

:)

i killed a bird today....

i killed a bird today.

...at least i think i did. pretty sure. a little sparrow in think. it was dead by the wheel of my car when i parked it in my spot. no other car parks there...so it had to have been me.

i felt kinda shitty about it...

i sorta wonder if that is partly what my dream was about last night...b/c i remember a car in the dream....actually a car accident.

anyway..the poor bugger is dead. poor guy. :(


happy mothers day tomorrow....for those who celebrate it.
have a nice day mum.

i'll be hiding for the world. trying my best anyway...

:)

i dreamt...

i dreamt i had wings last night. correction. i dreamt i had one wing. i had a left wing but no right. i could see it clearly...

i wasn’t flying or anything like that...don’t think you can fly with one wing.

it’s just not possible....

:)

i have a feeling...

i have the feeling....this weekend might be a rough one.

i hope not. not too rough anyway.

:)

naping with the cat and showboat...

had a not so busy day today...but for some reason feel asleep on the couch with the cat in the late afternoon. i was listening to music... haven’t just listened to music...for a very long time. it was nice but made me sleepy i guess.

i woke up just in time to make dinner and run off to the first showboat of the year. this year happens to be the 10th anniversary of the event...personally it's my 3rd year. we had about 70 people...what a great night....

it just doesn't get any better than this....


:)

vacation in vancouver...

i realise now why i go away after a show...b/c i really have no energy to get much done anyway.

so i thought i would start acting like i’m on vacation. do some of the things i do when i go away.

yesterday went to the art gallery...the VAG. checked out a few exhibits. i liked the fred herzog photos of vancouver....mostly from the 50’s-70’s. the rest of it was kinda crappy...oh well.

today i hung out at choppers all day breakfast for awhile and visited ani. afterwards we went and looked at an new home for her and her son. it looked pretty good...hope she gets it.

then we headed to the drive for a stroll tea and vintage shopping. it was a nice day.

showboat starts tomorrow!!! it's gonna be great!

:)

sing-a-long fun...

...but freakin' busy!

cbc did a piece on it a couple of months ago and i guess there was also a mention in the provence as well;
http://www.cbc.ca/livingvancouver/?page=segment&sid=3110

which is never a good thing where the regulars are concerned. our usual group was pretty small...just teresa, dan, donel, gene and me....luckily b/c no one would have gonna seats otherwise.

aaron has an amp now for his mandlin?! hez does a good job holding it up....

if you look behind the band you can see the table of lame as hez called it.....looks like the last supper to me.

see hez's blog for more of the gory details....
http://civixen.blogspot.com/

as a side note.... my friend dan was there last night for the first time in a year. he couldn't get up the stairs 'till now. it makes me wonder why they are allowed to have it none handicapped/wheelchair accessible?? maybe b/c it's an old building?

:)

more breakfast and dancing...

i went for breakfast again. this time with my church going friends. what a bunch of diverse friends i have....i consider myself very lucky in that way. they are all different that’s for sure. keeps life interesting.

it was almost impossible to get to breaky this morning....the stupid marathon made vancouver trafic even more fun than usual.

i didn’t do much else today...have to be honest and say i was feeling a little gloomy. later on i tried to pick up my mood by going off dancing in abbotsford...it helped...a bit. wasn’t a busy night...but still good.

dan came for the first time in a more than a year. don’t know if you remember but he was a friend who gradually lost most of his muscle mass due to a rare auto immune disease ....and now he is dancing. a few slow songs for now.....getting his strength back. it’s nice to see. a year ago and he wasn’t even sure if he would walk again...let alone dance.

ok...i guess that’s it for today....i’m really looking forward to tomorrow nights sing a long at the railway...haven’t made it in a few months b/c of work....it’s sure to pick me right up....fun fun fun!!

:)

breaky with the cool kids...

went for breaky at “chopper’s all day breakfast” today...on 1st at rupert today. where the fabulous and multi talented miss ani kyd was my fine and very busy waitress...


ran into a bunch of rockstars and cool kids including 12 o’clock midnight who had just bought this hurst....

also a few of ani’s friends...coco and her family....biker dudes and guys with mad crushes on ani...hehehe

so if anyone is interested in joining me for a good cheap breakfast and good coffee....give me a buzz anytime!

:)

i'm starting to wonder...

if my parents are the only ones that read this....

:)

hope...

so many people seem to lose their hope as they age. things happen i suppose. for some people it’s very gradual. some...like me... it’s all at once.

i know exactly the moment i lost my hope...it’s forever frozen in my mind.

it’s kind of refreshing meeting and hanging out with people who seem to have a bit of it left. it’s almost amazing to me. a reminder of what i once had and maybe even still have. a tiny flicker in the back of my mind. a little spark just waiting to relight...

:)

lcd soundsystem

went to see lcd soundsystem last night with my new friend gene. i enjoyed it. didn't really care for their sped up version on "def punk" but the rest in liked. especially the last two songs..."someone great" and (oh....i can't rememeber the name ot other one.. sorry) anyway i got right into the zone one those....

bumped into a few of people i know...garn, my hairdresser julie and aaron. aaron was doing the door. i bumped into aaron earlier in the day as well...on the drive. he's a funny guy. sent me a message on facebook saying he'll kick my ass out if i don't bring my ID! hehehe

all the pics i took turned out like this...


afterwards we went for some really bad food at some joint on granville st. granville is pretty bad place to find food at 1ish am...oh well. it was a nice night anyway.

:)

awesome dancing...

in the second set it looks like it might have been spead up...but it wasn't. that's how fast their dancing...



...and there's a nice bit of blues at the end.

:)

have you ever....?

have you ever felt a single tear run down your face? i mean really felt it? creeping slowing down tickling your cheak...tease it.

it hard to just let it be...just feel it. the urge is to wipe it off is so incredibly strong. it starts to sting and itch...

you to wipe it off...you have to.

like you have no choice....it’s impossible not to at one point.

:)

thin vale over my life

sometimes i think i wear a thin vale. a thin vale over me...as i go through life. it protects me....stops me from feeling too much. at times i pull it away peak through.... peering at the sun.

but mostly i wear the vale......

:)

can we rewind this day and start over?

...or fast forward. maybe that's better?

today was one of those days when i maybe should have stayed in bed.....but i didn’t....i got up. it pretty much went down hill from there. i don't really want to get into it....but my feelings are kinda raw right now....like i’ve been through the wringer and it’s exhausting.

i was suppose to go out for a drink tonight with a friend...but i think i will hide here instead. tomorrow is another day..getting my hair done.....lcd soundsystem in the evening. it should be better....i hope.

so tonight i’m just going to try and stay quiet.

shoot...i forgot to take my movies back...darn.

:)

R&R day

took and R&R day today...did some laundry, groceries, had tea with ani...that's about it. oh..watched two movies the queen and stranger than fiction.

i have stuff i should be catching up on...but i'll start all that tomorrow.

night night.

:)

st louis rawks...sunday :)

...i mean blues'

something about st louis....can't quite but my finger on it...that just rocks...I love it! I have no idea what I love about it. I just do.

I guess its sorta like how I can't never quite out my finger on why I dislike...or never been sure about...vancouver. 

It’s a feeling...like its in the air or something.

I feel inspired. inspired and feeling the blues....finally. i’ve had some truly amazing dances here. took me a day or two to loosen up! I was soooo tight when I got here. Now I'm loose as a goose. met some great people. some i met last year that are here again...as well as many new faces.

have to go back soon the the city of no blues...but not before I give her my all tonight ‘till the wee hours.....

:)

dancers to bikers...and back

saturday....

Dance workshops for most of the day today. They where lots of fun. I was a little stiff...don't seem to have a lot of confidence yet this weekend....not sure why. Sometimes its just like that. When you have confidence you dance great...when you don't...not so much. It's all a state of mind.

After the workshops there was a bit of time so I wondered into the moto motorcycle museum opening. That was fun. Some amazing old bikes in great shape.



this one is for garn and ani....1947 BMW...


there was also a guy doings tricks in the parking lot...


As I walked around thinking of how some of the things I like are so opposite of each other. None of the dancers had any interest in the bikes. Totally different sort of people that's for sure! The people I meet doing these things...are also so different from me...its weird. I don't mind...I kinda like it. I don't want to be like everyone else. But it maybe nice sometimes to be part of I group you feel you fit into... every now and again.

I'm pretty sure the last time I was part of a group I fit in with was in my punk days. Also I guess when I was skating....although with  skating I was always a little outside the box as well. except when I was really good...then everyone really liked me...go figure.

Ok...well I have to finish my meal and go back to the dancers...I'm hiding from them right now...i can't be with people 24/7. need time to myself.

:)

friday in st louis

well...i made it to st louis. and made it up the arch! here’s an arch fact for you.....it was built in 1965 the year of my birth and it's pretty cool..


the arch reflected in the mississippi...


here's a view of the city from the top..you can see bushc stadium which i went by to later on in the day...a game was about to start and i was super tempted to forget about dancing and go to that instead. i've never been to a real baseball game before. i probably would have done it if i'd have had a buddy with me. another time...


hey what's that at the base of the arch? is that video village??...you've got to be kidding me?! i can't seem to get away from film...


later i did some vintage shopping on delmar st....the vintage shopping is great here and the people are super nice. i tried to buy one apple at a fruit stand and the guy would let me pay.

a cool sign on delmar st..delmar seems to be my 'hood here.


i got some awesome bbq here...they serve snoot which i later found out is pig's nose. kinda glad i didn't order that...but at the same time...wish i did.


:)

dallas...

i wrote this on thursday...it's taken me a while to post stuff. i've been a bit busy dancing...sorry.

Here I am in Dallas texas airport for a second time...one year later....waiting for my flight to st louis.

I always feel like I'm in a bad commercial when I'm here. It very odd. I've never actually been out of the airport in texas....looking around....not sure I want to.  culture shock...for sure.

Its been a pretty good trip so far...knock on wood. I like travelling ....once I'm on the plane...I let my mind wonder and get all retrospective ...its good.

Ok now.... get me to st louis and give me that blues.

:)
  

st louis...give me that blues!

so i’m heading to st louis tomorrow..super early. i should be in bed but i just finished eating ...oh well.

i’m going for a 4days of blues dancing workshops, competitions(i'm not competing) and social dances...it will be fun. hoping to get a trip up the arch this time and of course have lots of great dances!

i'll bring my computer...so i might be able to do the blog. don't know yet.

:)

unexpected gifts...

unexpected gifts are the best kind.

i went to see the lawyer today...get stuff started...it was fine. it felt good and sad all at once. i felt a little drained afterwards so i decided to skip all the stuff i had to do and go have a nice tea with ani instead.

she gave me this bracelet that her late step mom made. she gave it to for no reason....just because

i thought that was very sweet....thankx ani.

:)

not my story to tell...

i have a friend that’s been dealt rather a difficult hand in life...a heavy hand. something she will always have to deal with....and there may not but much she can do about that. she deals as best she can and i would love to help in anyway i can...but i can’t really. there’s nothing i can do but stand by and be a good friend i guess...it sucks...but it’s the way it is. that’s life.

i wanted to write about it and it wasn’t working. then i figured out...it is a story....but it’s not MY story to tell and i think that’s why i couldn’t do it. i don’t know enough about it. all i know is my own experiences in life. i can draw from them to try and relate...but i can’t relate...b/c it’s not happening to me.

my good friend kim said to me once...."just b/c your dealt a shitty hand...doesn't mean you can't win the game"

i hope she's right...

:)

try again another day...

for some reason the thing i’ve wanted to write about for the last couple of days....isn’t coming out. so...i haven’t written anything.

sorry. i will try again tomorrow....

:)

party pic...

today was our little end of the season party for the department.

heres some pics....

goodies...


diane's happy about going to the spa...


brin and kelly made these cute little purses...


jen, carole and kelly check out the loot...


it's dianes 50th soon so we made her this a dorky card with all our faces on it...hehehe


:)

film hangover

well it seems i have what i call a film hangover. all i’ve felt like doing since being off work is sleeping, eating, drinking tea and watching movies.

i have plenty to do and catch up on...but just feel like doing it yet. my back and head hurts and i feel like i have a bodyover. i haven’t been drinking...i swear. maybe that’s the problem! hehe

it’s like my body just decided.....that’s enough....you’re done...take a break. massage tomorrow..hopefully that helps. i got stuff to do!

:)

nice way to start the hiatus...

went to see stomp with ani and her son michael last night. i guess one of the cast has a big crush on her (who doesn't? :):) and gave her comp tickets! nice....

it was a really great show and a perfect way for me to celebrate my last day of work.

they really did an amazing job putting the show together. and the sounds...wow...some so familiar...

The beating of 2 simple sticks together....like I heard every night at about 11 o'clock in tokyo. every night a guy would walk around the neighbourhood doing this as a reminder to put your fires out. it was a relaxing and rhythmic sound that i had totally forgotten about. don't think I've heard that since....what a nice memory.

Much of the stomping...I assume...inspired by tap. also reminded me a bit of when chester whitmore came up and nearly killed everyone in his tap workshops. i couldn’t walk for a week! during the dance afterwards chester broke into impromptu tapping and drumming using everything in sight..the floor, walls..whatever he could fine to tap out a rhythm...it was awesome!

afterwards we went by the irish heather and had some food since i hadn’t had time for dinner. it was a nice night all around.

thankx ani...

:)

do a little dance...make a little love...

...get down tonight..dududu....get down tonight...

ok...it's a bad song. but it's in my head. it's in my head b/c tomorrow is my last day on supernatural. (this season) don't know about the next!

yippie! :):):)

it's not over 'till it's over....

this weekend was a big dance weekend. competitions, workshops etc...

i didn't partake in all the activities mostly b/c of tiredness and other obligations ...and stress. this sean thing is really stressing me out. i'm renaming sundays "fight with sean day"...i think it has a certain ring to it.....don't you?

any way...here's a pic of kevin and kritabell from victoria whooping it up at the lindybout competition. i lifted from lindyhopper.ca....a fellow dancer justin took it. nice work justin!

that kristabell is some strong...


:)

clowning around and stuff...

cathy and jen thought it would be a good idea if we worked in clown shoes for the day.... it made working in a shitty warehouse all day more fun...


these were my shoes...


had a busy evening last night starting with a quick art gallery show at hawks gallery..then off to see wade and danielle for their annual birthday get together. alot of new faces this year...some of the old ones too. it was at salt..the new irish heather owned trendy spot in blood alley. i brought ani as my "date"....since no male ones seem to be around these days. we had a good time. even though i waited a very long time for cheese and cold cuts....more than a 1/2hr! seemed crazy. then the waiter didn't seem to want to give us more bread. i wouldn't recommend the place for a meal....but for a bite and some wine..sure. probably a nice place for a date....if i ever have one again.... :(unless you work in film...b/c half the crew from my show was there.

afterwards i headed to an awesome blues party at jim's...couldn't stay long b/c tiredness was over coming me. these guys played some impromptu blues....


:)

holy shit!!

ok...i just realised i've been doing this blog this for more than a year!! it was april 5th of last year i started. i have done 360 posts in that time! almost one a day..a little less.

wow......

never thought i would have a blog...didn't even know what a blog was the year before that!! i got inspired by reading garns blog....and decided to do my own. thanks garn.

here i am...one year later. funny how life is...

it's been really good i think. opened up some new communication and helped me work some stuff out.

:)

busy weekend ahead...

it's friday tomorrow...thank god! i've had it with this work week!

it will be a busy weekend with some dancers coming to stay for a special dance weekend....competions and workshops. i have one coming from ottawa and one from the island.

i'm not doing the whole dance weekend myself. too many other things going on..plus i'm not really into competions...got burnt out from those when i was a kid.

also tomorrow night is wade and danielle's birthday party.

night night...

:)

sleeping powder in my lunch...

i do believe someone has put sleeping powder in my lunch, lead weights in my shoes and glued my ass to this chair....

i'm not kidding!!

i'm soOooOo over working...and now they want me to work a few days next week. crap. even though i only worked a 10hr day today...i feel like i did 15. so rented a movie sat my ass down in my chair and it ain't moving 'till bed. i already watched the movie....'children of men". great movie...but make sure the kleenex is handy.

apparently lcd soundsytem is on letterman...so i might stay up for that.

goodnight

:)

magic...

ok...something happened to this link...hopefully it comes back and you can see the shear magic....

this is why i dance...these guys are unfriggin'believable!



i can aspire to this...and never get there...but can always keep trying.

i have to watch it again...

...man that makes me smile!!

:)

nothing really happened today...

i had today off. i relaxed...watched a movie. i'm uneasy about not doing much....not use to it...bit i think i needed it.

one thing i did do was sign the papers for my new company. btw i didn't get my cool name...so it's jojo productions inc. which is kinda stupid b/c that was one of the names they didn't let me have the last time i incorporated. stupid government....i think they just automatically give you your 3rd choice...don't even consider the others.

anyway...back to work tomorrow...3 days this week..2 next..and i'm done. can't wait!

here's a crazy pic for you....i like it...


:)

easter monday

nice day all around i think...had coffee...got some nice groceries and a visit in at granville island.

later had a little easter monday bbq with the ever lovely ani kyd and her tiny doggie sophie. jazz was not happy about the dog that looks (to her) like an over grown rat and sophie wasn't too sure about the gaint (to her) cat. ani pretty much took over the bbq duties...and i was happy to have the help.

...i should have taken pics...sorry.

:)

let the games begin...

i saw sean today... finally. after many phone messages and phone calls...some that were very strange. he was suppose to meet me yesterday ..but cancelled..then when we were suppose to meet today at 3pm. at noon he called me said he was there....what?? ok...you're 3hrs early...

as soon as i saw him...i new it wasn’t going to be good. he had sunglasses on...it wasn’t sunny. he was talking to me...but looking ahead...at nothing. i don’t know what’s wrong with him...but i don’t like it...not one bit. we started fighting almost right away....

i had enough.....i walked away. as i looked back as we yelled across the park. i looked at kimba and daisy and thought...i wonder if this is the last time i see them? fuck...i hope not.

i will all be in a lawyer hands soon. sean will most likely loose his truck....but it’s his own fault. he wouldn’t soft play ball...so we’re gonna play hard.

afterwards i was sooo mad i went home and cleaned my apartment...anger cleaning. i’ve heard of it... seen it in movies. not sure if i’ve done it before...once or twice maybe. anyway my apartments clean...and so is my fridge!

thanks sean...thanks for all you have made me realise today...and the clean apartment!

:)

ps... thanks to all the great friends that have been listening to me bitch and offered words of wisdom on this....(i think you probably know who you are;)...thank you thank you thank you!

more helpful tips...

when i got my allergy tests done the other day the guy told me i should clean my fridge every week..b/c of my mould allergy. yeah right...i laughed...he looked at me. i think he was wondering why i laughed so hard....but he didn’t comment. i'll get right on that...put it on the list with every other household chore i should do.

i do have weee tip for my fellow ‘disables. if your fridge gets dirty...take the light out....it’s way less noticeable. don’t make the mistake i made though...don’t wonder why there is no light and put it back in. eeekkkk...what's that at the back of my fridge??!
scary...

:)

chocolate jesus and bunnies...

had a pretty good day of visiting and errands today. went by to see mishi and garbs at the pickle.

garbs is making these pretty cool plushies...

i'm gonna have to get myself one i think!

in a bit i'm going to see dyan and paulus for a drink at stella's...haven't seen them in awhile. tomorrow more visiting chocolate bunnies is on the menu.

for those of you who haven't heard about the chocolate jesus thing going on in the states i've put a link below...

i really don't understand what the problem they have with it. i don't think the artist is making fun of jesus. i would say it may be making a statement about commercialism in religion. i guess it the nakedness they don't like. whats with the americans and nakedness anyway? naked is good! :) i had to copy a story from NZ because all the others i found didn't show the whole pic...or they showed the back it only! that's retarded.....no wonder north americans have body issues.

i personally think the guy should cash in on it and make mini ones...

http://www.stuff.co.nz/stuff/dailynews/4012155a12.html

:)

happy easter weekend!

easter is early this year...but not a moment too soon. i'm very happy to be off work and on the home stretch...and what a good start to the weekend!

it beautiful day....nice night. first of all the set dec guys washed my car!! awesome guys! i thought they were joking...then i walk outside and it's all shinny!

here's a car dealer near my work..they dress that guy up for the holidays..i love the bunny tail!

got off work early then met anne of a few before dancing...had the most amazing balboa dance with larry...actually every dance was amazing. some nights are like magic...when you just dance every dance to your fullest! :) :)

anne at the legion...


:)

5 days of freedom...

i just found out that i have a 5 day weekend coming up! wow....that's pretty exciting!!

have no idea what i will do. ok....i have a few ideas...

i know it will involve chocolate...seeing as many friends as i can...new and old (that one might be a challange...but i will try my best :) dancing, eatting (hopefully w/ others)....and a little wine..i think. have to tend to some business as well...but hopefully not too much.

;)

odd feeling...

i'm in an odd mood tonight...not sure what it is.

like i'm waiting for something...i know is coming. i just don't know when to except it. it 's a strange feeling. like if i concentrate hard enough...i would know what it is.

all would be clear.

:)

tribulations of a blogger

dad sent me this..and since nothing really happened to me today....that i feel like sharing...

This was pubished in the Calgary Herald on Monday and copied in the national press on April 02, 2007....

Paris secretary and blogger Catherine Sanderson has won her wrongful dismissal case, but other bloggers should not take the ruling to mean it's carte blanche in cyberspace.

Sanderson, who blogged under the pseudonym "petite anglaise," was careful to keep her employer's name and her own under wraps, even as thousands of people logged on to her blog daily to read about the latest in her love life and at her office. She was fired after posting photos of herself on the site, leading her employer, an accounting firm, to feel the company had been maligned. They accused her of blogging from the office, damaging the firm's reputation and sneaking out for a tryst on company time.

Now that an industrial tribunal has ordered the company to pay Sanderson more than $100,000, it would seem that anything goes in the blogosphere. Wrong. Discretion is still the better part of valour. An older generation might lament the passing of an age of modesty and privacy, in which people didn't feel the need to tell all to thousands of strangers.

However, that attitude is passe in a cyberspace world where the number of personal blogs ranges in the hundreds of millions. People are inevitably going to post their thoughts and the storiesof their daily lives on lime, but they need to be cognizant of the fact that some rules still apply.

Any time one is making a personal story public, there is always a danger that someone else will get hurt, and that the hurt will end up in a courtroom.

The ruling went in Sanderson's favour this time; the next no-holds barred blogger may not be so lucky.


...thanks dad.

:)

i bought most of this shit!!

wrap continues on supernatural....looks like we're gonna be there most of the month! eekkk....inventorying two years of crap we bought....great. it's alot of shit let me tell you...and i bought most of it! fudge...

i can't wait 'till it's over....and i have a tummy ache.

night night

:)

paying the price today...

lots of action last night with our wrap party and then rockin with the cadaver dogs at the railway.

i’m too hung over to write too much....so here are some pics...

ani and me at the wrap party


midnight admiring ani's assets at the railway


blog buddie hez and i finally meet...she writes a mean blog. funny gal!


ani kyd and taylor little...from bug house 5...ham it up for the camera


:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!

yesterday was mum's 77th (that's a pretty good number!)...she's in england right now visiting her 99year old dad (another good number)....so she probably won't see this. maybe dad can pass it on.

mum's always the first on the dance floor...even in her 70's. guess i inherited some of that!

mum...where's your shoes?!

mum sitting down...very uncharacteristic!


anyway...hope you had a good one! love jojoxx

:)

blessing or a curse?

today i read an article about a study done on mind wondering. they did a study at UBC...they gave a bunch of students war and peace to read...ok...maybe that was their first mistake! they should have given them a more interesting book...not so heavy!

anyway.... apparently the test subjects were not thinking about what they’re doing about 30% of the time. 30%...that’s it? for me i think that percentage is just a little higher...;) ok, alot higher..... especially when i’m working. i would say about 60% of the time i’m thinking about something or many other things. yes....it gets me into trouble from time to time. garn couldn’t stand it i know that. i got into a little fender bender with a dump truck b/c of it once...that wasn’t so good. most of the time i just miss exits...things like that.

i try to be more zen and concentrate on one thing and one thing alone. i read a book about that once. it just doesn't work for me. japanese people are good at that...they are trained from a young age. but then they have a hard time multi tasking and creative thought...thinking out side of the box and problem solving. i personally think it’s a talent i have developed over time to get me through life's boring or tough times. things like driving in traffic, standing in lines, mindless jobs or people who talk excessively about boring subjects. it get me through them without out too much effort.

if you care to read more on the subject;
http://www.suburbanchicagonews.com/newssun/news/303629,5_WA20_wandering.article

:)

yes i am!

i saw a friend at dancing last night i hadn't seen in awhile. his name is dave and he lives in victoria.

dave: ”are you having fun?”

me: “i just got here”

dave: “i meant...yeah know...in your life”

i was a little surprised....had to think about it of a second....
i smile...

me "yeah...know what...yes i am!!"

:)

this post is almost the same as last nights!

i just realised that...sorry. guess life can't be interesting everyday!

working hard today down at the salt mines but at least i had a great stress reliever dancing afterwards. didn't go for long but it was all i needed.

aaron's band... blue morris played and they had a tv crew there filming. i avoided the cameras...

i was suppose to meet a friend for a beer at granview (bowling) lanes...which is literally right next door to were i dance. just to say hi and have a quick drink....but i guess not enough of her group showed up so the bowling night was a bust...oh well. we will get together another time.

oh yeah...i didn't get my first choice of company name....so it's.."network productions inc". it's good...not quite as good...but i think it's ok.

:)

wrapping it up...

we started our last episode yesterday and are already feverishly wrapping it up. i really hate wrap...more than anything!

i've been in a dust pit organising clothing for a few days...with many more it go...weeks more! man it's alot of work....way more than my usual job. other departments always seem to have such an easy wrap...i can never understand it. we slog away. we must be doing something wrong. i have find out what...so i don't make the same mistakes when i'm a designer!

tomorrow night is dancing again...thank the lord..i need it! meeting a new friend for a beer first...another new friend! i told you...i'm on a roll!!

:)

fate...

i have meet many new friends lately....it’s strange b/c i often find it hard to meet people in vancouver....then all of a sudden....bang! i’m meeting people left right and centre! good people...great people....people i like and connect with! amazing....

for some reason i feel it all started that night i went to that art retrospective at the jem**. everyone cancelled on me...but i decided to go alone and i’m sooo glad i did! i meet two awesome people that night...then later others that were kinda offshoots from those....like a snow ball rolling down a hill!

when i think about how and why i met the important people in my life, often there seems to be a twist of fate involved...which is awesome...i love fate! i like thinking about all the events and decisions that had to come into play for all those little stones to fall just the right way...so you end up bumping into each other!

here's to fate!!

:)

edit** actually now that i think of it...it started long before that...but it seemed to speed up since the jem.

new name...

i have to dissolve my company and start and new one...for tax/divorce reasons.

my last company was named after tessah. i was going to name it almost the same name. then i thought...why not have a brand new name? for a brand new chapter in my life.....

so here it is...if i get it. garnet is partly responsible b/c of the nick name he gave me....

network design inc.

i think it's good...

:)

has spring sprung?

daisy is pretty happy with all the mud today at trout lake...


it was a beautiful day today...it looked like spring has sprung. i woke up pretty energetic considering i went to bed at 2:30am. i think it's all the vitamins this new doctor has me on. anyhow i met brent and his friends for breaky at the kings head in kits then made a quick stop to drop off and pick something at the pickle. wow...granville island was crazy! i had to park illegally then just run in.

after that i took the doggies for a little walk at trout lake...it was great..muddy...but great. daisy loves the mud so she was happy and kimba was just trying to hump every dog he could...guess he has spring fever. some dog owners don't take to kindly to that kind of behaviour. they get all mad at you. they're dogs...who cares. he's fixed...wants the big deal.?! it's kinda funny really...

:)

my new friend is crazy....

...and that’s cool with me. in fact it’s more than cool..it's absolutely fantastic! ;-)


yesterday ani and i went out and interviewed people on the worse corner in north america...main and hastings....ani’s neighbourhood. she wanted to do it for a contest...i think it’s for a possible job opportunely actually ...ya know the guy that goes around and does silly interviews with people on the street.

anyway, she needed someone to hold the camera....i gladly volunteered. it was pouring rain..but i thought what the heck...i have wellies!

she interviewed on drunk guy who wanted smokes, a homeless women, a guy who just got out of jail and a well spoken native guy all from the ‘hood.

it was fun....i think we might do it again. perhaps next time in a better neighbourhood.

it’s stuff like that, that inspires me to do some of the stuff i wanna do. today i went to meet with the producer and director of the short film i’ll be designing. i figure...i just have to start doing it...and i am

i will post the videos here. ani's just having a few technical difficulties sending them...

oh...i almost forgot rent "the man who sued god" w/ billy connolley inspiring and funny!

:)

rain outside....sunshine inside.

a lot of people are having an hard time with this rain....i’m trying to stay postive...but yeah it’s hard.

mishi gave me these flowers..they had lots down at granville isl...brightens things up! thanks mish



mishi brightens up the pickle with some flowers in aluminum vases garn made for her years ago..i think they look great...


garbs tries to brighten his mood with a flower...it wasn't really working...oh well.


:)

hmmm....

i have airmile points.... ;)

st louis blues

the st louis blues thing is coming up soon and they just put some videos up on you tube...

people are asking me what blues is...well here's a taste...


the video's a poor quaity...but it give you the idea. this one is in an outside bar..under the lights of busch stadium


makes me want to go again...


i just rememebered..i dreamt i was blues dancing last night....

:)

one more episode to go!

show’s almost over. i’m glad of that...i’m tired and i have stuff i want to do! always at this point...i just want it to be over...that’s all. none of this endless wrap....ekkk

i’m inspired right now...inspired to do other things...

i will design a few idie things..that will be good. i have an inspiration to write something maybe...we shall see. would like to take some small trips...maybe a road trip with a friend to portland or san fran..that would be good. maybe a visit to TO. i’m forgoing the bigger trips b/c of other things i have to deal with in my life...but i’m getting there. it all has to be done by the time i go back to work. oh..and i want to take motorcycle lessons and go skydiving again!

:)

it's spring in ireland already...

so mum filled me in all the mis info i had in yesterday blog. that's ok....i got enough of it right that i'm not going to edit...let's just say it's a very irish tale...

happy spring....it starts in about 1.5 hrs or so...

:)

13 sisters. for all the stong women i know...

i wanted to write this on the weekend but it just got too crazy and i needed a quiet moment to collect my thoughts...

i don’t know the whole story...just bits and pieces that have been told to me here and there....so if i get any wrong...oh well....it’s a irish story...so it doesn’t matter! hehe

there were 13 lynch sisters ...my grandmother winifred being one of them. one of the younger ones and one boy...thomas...who was killed at the age of 16 by an ira attack (of which he was a supporter) i believe the ambulance he was in was inadvertently bombed on the way to the hospital .... something like that.

anyway that left the 13 sisters ...all crazy lynchs and two parents in somewhere in county cork.

many of them took jobs as beauticians to make ends meet as well help out with the war effort as well (WW1)...my grandmother decided she wanted to help out...lied about her age and said she could drive...when she couldn’t. drove some poor frightened general around backwards. grandma also had a thing about lying about her age. she was ten years or more older (noone knows) than my grandpa. she said her birth certificate got destroyed in he war. i think grandpa found out her age when she died but true to her wishes and not put it on her grave stone...i thought that was kinda romantic...

when the younger lynch women got older...many of them decided to find fame and fortune in london where they wanted to star on the big screen....i guess that must have been the 30’s when motion pictures were just becoming the thing...

mum and grandma were extras in cleopatra in 1934...mum would have been 4..that was the beginning and end of her film carreer...oh well...

i wish i could have known and meet more of the sisters....i only remember grandma, babs, theresa and jerry.

if i remember correctly jerry was the kind of woman that even though older was incredibly beautiful...the kind of women when you meet her you think...wow...if she looks like that now...she must have been unbelievably stunning when young.

theresa. theresa...i have to say...was my personal favourite. sorry grandma....but what a woman. super bubbly and upbeat and funny even in her 90’s after raising two children as a single mother (in those days it wasn’t done)... and out living them both...which was sad. she was a bit of a nutter as well. apparently she use to leave aptments with out paying her rent....not when she was young...but in her 70’s. and joined religious groups mainly for the parties! i remember the last time i saw her...she was in her late 90’s...she was so funny....she said “ i don’t have any tea...but i have gin! “ as she pulls a bottle from under the bed....too funny.

the odd thing was theresa died on my birthday...and tessah was due on my birthday. i named tessah after her...it just seemed right.

babs i didn’t really see eye to eye the few times i met her. she was a little hard to get along with....tough lady. the youngest of 14....couldn’t have been easy i guess. i think we would have gotten on later if had the chance. she died at the age of 99...the last of the lynch women...sad really. we had reunion a party for her on her 100th birthday...it was fun met many cousins i had never or rarely met...and played irish tunes...and end of era...but hopefully there is still a little in us...mum and me...katharina...jooles and eli...

and all the strong women in my life....

:)

st pat’s day weekend

i was actually had an idea for special st pat's day blog...but could seem to get into it today..maybe i'll do it later in the week...we will see...


it was a busy weekend for sure being st pat’s day weekend.

saturday night i headed to the media club with ani to see the dreadnaughts and the furious....both awesome bands. i now know why i usually see bands at the railway....b/c i don’t feel like such an old lady there! the crowd was young and drunk. ani saw some friends she hadn’t seen in 6 years so that as cool...and her cousin. oliver and terin met us there later...they’re buddies with one of the bands. it was a fun night...regarless of the fact i felt like i was chaperoning some high school event!

before the band ani and i went for a tea and bumped into some kilted firemen with bag pipes...drums and horns...we had to stop drool for a bit!


Sunday was pretty low key...went to visit mishi and garbs at the pickle...then hung out with garbs for awhile. we went to zulu and then checked out the celtic day celebrations on granville st.

celtic day...how retarded is that. they didn't want to call it st patty’s day for fear of offending the other celtic communities!!! that’s sooo friggin’ vancouver....

anyway...all in all i have to say it was a very nice weekend and looks like spring might finally be here...

now the real news..i’m cooking steak! see how that goes..the cooking and the eating!

:)

allergy update...

mum and dad noticed this right away...not sure if others did or not....re; my allergy test

it seems my dairy and beef allergies are gone! do a little dance...make a little love...buy some cheese!!!

yes..that’s pretty exciting i have to say. i did a little grocery shop and bought some yogert...REAL cheese...and a steak!!! ok..the steak might have been over doing it...but i was excited! turns out i am mildly allergic to the preservative they put in meat to make it look red. so i should stick to organic...but it’s still pretty cool!


it's my lucky day tomorrow....hope it's yours...happy st patty's day everyone!

:)

a joke for the domestically disabled...

rollergirl joke...i found this on myspace and had to pass it on...

Sorry secretaries and school teachers

Three men were sitting together bragging about how they had given their new wives duties.

The first man had married a secretary and had told her that she was going to do dishes and house cleaning. It took a couple days, but on the third day he came home to a clean house and dishes washed and dinner cooked.

The second man had married a school teacher . He had given his wife orders that she was to do all the cleaning, dishes, and the cooking. The first day he didn't see any results, but the next day he saw it was better. By the third day, he saw his house was clean, the dishes were done, and there was a huge dinner on the table.

The third man had married a rollergirl. He told her that her duties were to keep the house clean, dishes washed, lawn mowed, laundry washed and hot meals on the table for every meal. He said the first day he didn't see anything, the second day he didn't see anything, but by the third day some of the swelling had gone down and he could see a little out of his left eye, enough to fix himself a bite to eat and load the dishwasher."

...that made me laugh!

:)

doggie walk etc..

had a nice doggie walk today...i was feeling tired though...still am


after that had my allgery tests done..

these are the things i'm most allergic too;

crab, lobster, scallops..i love scallops! peppers...no hot food apparently...shitty, almonds, cashews, peanuts, msg, house dust and dust mites...i have a lot of those in my apartment! mixed molds, feathers, sheeps wool...better not get a farm. alder, cottonwood, mixed grass and bakers yeast! no more coissants..or bread except crap at the heath food store that weighs a ton!!

ok...i a few weeks i'll be getting toxin test and see my vitamin level. fun times!

:)

thursday off...

i have tomorrow off! yippie. i hope it's as nice outside as it was today! i'm going to walk doggies then get allergy tests..b/c i've had a rash for 4 months!

i'll let you know if i pass...

:)

ps..pics aren't downloading right now..sorry...i need to add colour to my blog but it will have to wait!

another tip...

ok...i have another tip for those of you that are like me..i know your out there...;)

if you haven't done your dishes and need a side plate for your toast...a shallow bowl works just as good! failing that i guess just any bowl...or a piece of paper towel...

:)

staying up late....

for some reason no matter how tired i am at 9:30 or 10...somehow at 11:30pm...i wake right up! now with the time change..i wake up at 12 or 12:30am! so i'm super hyper for about an hour or so. not sure how long i've been doing that for..but most of my adult years for sure. i really should have a night job i guess....it's painful when that alarm rings at 6:30am!

i might have thursday off...maybe even friday too! if so this cat gonna be sleeping in!

:)

help...i need more music!

i drive in my car every day almost all day...listening to the same friggin’ cd’s everyday!

so tonight i’m burning a bunch from my itunes...i need more though. so if anyone has heard or bought a good cd lately...let me know about it.

can i borrow it?! ...or just tell me about it and i’ll spring for it!

goodnight

: )

rain and warm feet

last night i meet anne before dancing as we often do..had dinner at the clove then neither of us felt like going dancing...which has never happened! that was weird.

i’ve been a little tired trying to get over this cold...so i probably needed the rest....

today was a pretty good sunday. despite the ridiculous amount of rain..and there was a lot of it for sure.

i got up too late to have breakfast with brent...i didn’t forget about the time change. i just could drag my ass out of bed....hopefully i make it next week.

went for a little visit at the pickle had a nice coffee and chat with mishi. my feet got pretty wet with this rain. mish she said heard that one for the main causes of colds cold wet feet....which i have had alot lately. so afterwards i went home and changed my boots to rubber ones and wooly socks....it felt sooo good!

the rest of the day was errands....cleaned a little....

thought a little movie and relax tonight would be good...have to be up super friggin’ early tomorrow b/c of the time difference.

i hate daylight savings....it sucks. it doesn’t work here anyway...b/c we don’t have sun...the lights have to be on all the time regardless....

:)

quotes to make you smile...

mum and dad forwarded me these...thought they were pretty good.


"He has all the virtues I dislike and none of the vices I admire." - Winston
Churchill

"A modest little person, with much to be modest about." - Winston Churchill

"I have never killed a man, but I have read many obituaries with great
pleasure." - Clarence Darrow

"He has never been known to use a word that might send a reader to the
dictionary." - William Faulkner (about Ernest Hemingway)

"Poor Faulkner. Does he really think big emotions come from big words?" -
Ernest Hemingway (about William Faulkner)

"Thank you for sending me a copy of your book; I'll waste no time reading
it." - Moses Hadas

"He can compress the most words into the smallest idea of any man I know." -
Abraham Lincoln

"I didn't attend the funeral, but I sent a nice letter saying I approved of
it." - Mark Twain

"He has no enemies, but is intensely disliked by his friends." - Oscar Wilde

"I am enclosing two tickets to the first night of my new play; bring a
friend.... if you have one." - George Bernard Shaw to Winston Churchill

"Cannot possibly attend first night, will attend second... if there is
one." - Winston Churchill, in response.

"I feel so miserable without you; it's almost like having you here." -
Stephen Bishop

"He is a self-made man and worships his creator." - John Bright

"I've just learned about his illness. Let's hope it's nothing trivial." -
Irvin S. Cobb

"He is not only dull himself, he is the cause of dullness in others." -
Samuel Johnson

"He is simply a shiver looking for a spine to run up." - Paul Keating

"He had delusions of adequacy." - Walter Kerr

"There's nothing wrong with you that reincarnation won't cure." - Jack E.
Leonard

"He has the attention span of a lightning bolt." - Robert Redford

"They never open their mouths without subtracting from the sum of human
knowledge." - Thomas Brackett Reed

"In order to avoid being called a flirt, she always yielded easily." -
Charles, Count Talleyrand

"He loves nature in spite of what it did to him." - Forrest Tucker

"Why do you sit there looking like an envelope without any address on it?" -
Mark Twain

"His mother should have thrown him away and kept the stork." - Mae West

"Some cause happiness wherever they go; others, whenever they go." - Oscar
Wilde

"He uses statistics as a drunken man uses lamp-posts... for support rather
than illumination." - Andrew Lang (1844-1912)

"He has Van Gogh's ear for music." - Billy Wilder

"I've had a perfectly wonderful evening. But this wasn't it." - Groucho Marx

:)

art, house and metal...

ani and her hot friend mark

another hot friend of ani's...dash the door man and me at the columbia

ok well..i’ve been getting over a cold and thought a low key art show night at the jem gallery would be just the ticket.

i met ani there..looked at art chatted with people...then at band started playing music and putting on a fashion show....which i think was a really bad idea b/c no one was looking or chatting after that...so we left. i wanted to go to monsoon for a snack and a drink...that was cool. it’s closing down at the end of may...it will be missed.

after that we cruised around town seeing what’s what. ani seems to know people everywhere. didn't end up low key...but that's definately ok...it was fun!

here are some highlights...

heavy metal at the belmoral...didn't stay there long...


some art at the jem...i'm thinking of buying the piece in the corner...by miss rheanna fancypants..


this piece was pretty cool...


so were these....


rockin' to house at the columbia..


:)

today i went to work with my shirt on inside out...

i dress people for a living! this is my life right now and not what the rest of this blog is about....


why is it that somethings never change? for some reason i have this naive idea that things will....and i’m surprised and hurt when they don’t. what’s that about? doe’s everyone do that...or is it just me? i know i get hurt easily by peoples action..or non action.
...i try not to...but i do.

i sometimes think i ask too much of people..but then i think...i only ask what i myself are willing to give. that it seems that is too much for some people. so am i destined to be hurt by them? continuously? maybe i just have to stay away from those people who hurt me.....but that hurts too.

fuck.

:)

dogs and poo...

i figure i might as well not change the subject yet...

this was one of the top stories in the paper today! slow news day i guess...
apparently there is a dog poo problem in vancouver...a 4.3 million kilos a year problem. that can't be right...that's a lot of shit!!

the city is talking about using it for compost or even an energy source. sometimes i think kimba's poo would be a good source of energy...at least it smells like it would be anyway.

speaking of poo....have to change the kitty litter...now there's an energy source!

ok...it was a slow news day for me as well...

:)

daisy update...

daisy's gonna be ok. her tumour was benign. she's getting back to her little daisy self nicely!

that's a relief...

:)

toilet answers...

my friend nick from portland...who is also dance club guy...is doing this on utube now.

it's called toilet answers...and i think it could be funny. if he has some good questions. so send him some...



opsss..i forgot to give you the link...here it is...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hdf-IIDmIgk&eurl=http%3A%2F%2Fpr

...and this is the myspace link..
http://www.myspace.com/toiletanswers

:)

good thoughts for daisy girl...

i was suppose to see the doggies yesterday....but couldn’t get in touch with sean..not unusual. it’s pretty normal for him not to call me back for days...a week..whatever. i figured he lost his phone or charger or turned it off...his usual excuses. i’m use to it.

today he called me to tell me daisy girl went in for surgery to remove a tumour. not sure why he didn’t tell me before hand. i was quite upset at him. what if something had gone wrong and i never saw her again?

she seems fine apparently ...but they still have to do the biopsy to make sure it’s not cancer.

so please sent good thoughts for daisy girl. she really is a super sweet girl....and i'd be sad if anything happened to her.

one for daisy's favorite things is to lay in the water. she likes mud puddles the best..but the ocean will do nicely...


:)

tea time with ani

i’m getting into a bad habit lately of staying up super late on the weekends. last night i did it again. i came home from dancing at about 1am...stayed up 'til 3am. so i awoke quite late this morning and had a slow start to the day.

after i got myself together. i went over to ani’s place for a little tea time. it was nice. we chatted for hours about various things...loves lost...life...doggies. i often find it hard to connect with other women...men are easy..but women i never seem to have much in common with. ani is different. we seem to connect. we aren’t the same..but we relate. something about the strong scottish women...something in the blood...way back. i can relate ...b/c i am one as well. we recognise it in each other.

it’s nice...it’s nice to meet and get to know a new friend.

:)

updates...

descided to make my myspace page a little more interesting. i think it's looking pretty good...i'm going to do more.

check it out if you want...

http://www.myspace.com/thephychicnetwork

:)

if there's a part 1..there has to be a part 2

i went to grab my script today for the next episode. i look down at the title and it reads; "all hell breaks loose, part 1"

well. i thought all hell had already broken loose...i guess not. eekkkk

:)

2:18am....friday night.

sorry my blog haven’t been very inspired the last few days. it was a rough week.

it’s 2:18 am friday night. i just watched “babel”. what a good movie. a real tear jerker for me. wow...i can’t believe that didn’t win an oscar for best picture. watch it sometime....but be ready to cry.

it brought me back to some moments in my life....life and death moments. hard to think about.... but in truth...they maybe the most beautiful moments....maybe the best in my life. i realise that sounds odd....but i truly believe that. some of you may understand and some may just think i have lost it. the ones that understand....know what i say is true.

:)

one month to go...

one month left on my show. it's gonna be a long long month....

still need a hug...

:) jox